FeELinGs. Such dramatical word for something that could be described as... What are feelings? It should be easy to share your feelings, isn't it? Well it isn't.
Feelings can even be hard to deal with when they're on a hypotherical level. When you are just questioning their existence, and not bothering the endless line of problems their temporary solution might lead to.
And here you are, looking up the definition of feelings, hoping to hold onto something, a weirdly exact definition, that'll mean a concrete sign, that'll end your suffering.
It is not that pile of words. All that these empty lines can lead you to is thinking. And even through you don't deserve all the suffering bearing with your thoughts, it's your legacy, your fate, because all human kind are screwed once they start to catch feelings towards another.
You are not alone in your situation.
You may have gotten a jackpot, or you may have caught feelings towards the wrong person, but anyway: you have to carry yourself on. You have to get your thoughts together once you're ready to end your pain, and tell them how do you feel.
It'll hurt like stepping on a fucking lego – seriously, it may will hurt. But you will be able to heal from such pain, because you are the only one that can really look out for you. At the end, everyone's their single(pun) and only company.
Feelings are difficult to deal with, but not impossible. You won't be stuck with your current views and – well – feelings forever. Times will change.
by Wellimscrewed May 31, 2021